"we're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to rust. I guess we'll just have to adjust"

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Not a fun last couple of weeks, most of which has felt like what this guy must feel like, jumping off a building with the assurance that something is there to catch you.

I live up in the mountains near Tahoe and I've got the best seat in the house, Sierras lit up any time of day just to my left, but peace comes hard in the middle of an impossible availability I can't conquer. so instead I look left to see bright white snow while sweating in 90 degree weather and hope I can soon hear myself think.

no that's not a metaphor.

I'm just in between everything at the moment, peace and storm, free and trapped, and it's hard to concentrate on even the most precious things when that becomes life. I love this fashion I love this art I love this medium, but at the moment I feel like I'm neglecting it by being stuck.

But hopefully things will pick up eventually and maybe I'll stop feeling like the personification of a Langston Hughes poem, waiting hoping for the explosion, but for now, I'm just going to apologize for being a bad blogger and ask you all to bare with me for a little while longer. Please understand, I'll be back as soon as I can.


amy@flyingakite.blogspot.com said...

I feel your confusion, and sadness. I am so glad to have read your blog today because I've been struggling as well, and for me, it's solace when another soul as beautiful as yours feels the same . i look forward to your return, as you have a fantastic job, but for now, i'm just I can look through your past posts and be inspired all over again. stay wonderful, and hopefully the sun will shine brighter one day than ever before, and you'll feel hope and happiness like you never knew existed. i hope the same for me. best wishes


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Chesca. said...

your past posts are inspirational enough to leave us with enough for a while :] take your time and don't feel any rush - that 'explosion' will come when its ready, i think everyone has been there or will do one day, so we'll just be here waiting :]


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Alex said...

first of all, thank you for this posting, it offered words to what i'm feeling.
second, im so happy i ran into your blog just now, i'm already in love. the talk about tahoe makes me miss the san francisco i just left though, but i'll be back.. both there and here.

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